i fucking blew it... for a 2nd time....

the big daily double that is...

one day... actually the very first time i played them... i final tabled one, and got either a 10th or 11th in the other... in that one i didnt adjust my play for the guaranteed 10k you get for making 1 or 2 more spots.

today i decided to play super tight and fold into the FT, and the big stacks were walking all the other shorties, raising then folding to their shoves getting better than 2-1, then always raising me... so i busted 10th like a fucking retard...

i fucked it up, no way should this had happened.... next time i will play tighter than normal, but not fold to the 10k i guess.




so retarded getting the final table and bubbling the other one... 2 fucking times... i suck...


at least i got some bonus though....





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other than that, i am still running extremely shitty.. i either am a horrible player, or i am running way below expectation.. not sure... but for the bulk of this year i get non-stop coolers and sick beats... i have ran hot in an occasional tourney, but pretty sure im just in an extreme downside of variance. it has probably been 15 months since i had several good months in a row... maybe i am horrible. i am definitely starting to hate this game.

i know for sure i get spewy at times, and to tight at times.... but i dont think i am making a huge amount of mistakes.

i dont know... i may have to quit MTTs even though i really dont wanna...